Fathers Day Woes

Well today was fathers day and I spent the day with my dad hanging out and playing cards. But deep down in my heart I was kinda depressed today. Well dont get me wrong I love my son and I am very thankful that I get to spend a lot of time with him. But today was supposed to be the day he got some one on one time with his dad. But of course not, and I guess it didnt really suprise me either, which is pretty sad. A week ago his dad came by and brought me my sons child support and saw his son for two minutes. Not once did he say anything about fathers day or ask about taking him. I guess im not much better cause I didnt say anything to him about taking him for fathers day but I wanted him to step up for once. I wanted him to want to take his son and not be forced or reminded to take him. I want my son to have a relationship with his dad. I wish his dad could see him the way I see him. To have that special bond that a son should have with his father. I dont know what I would do if I couldnt see my son or talk to my son everyday. I would go crazy cause my little man is the most amazing child. Very loving and caring, he has a fun personality and I absolutely love watching him grow and change into the boy he is today. I know my son doesnt really know whats going on but as he gets older it scares me. I know whats its like growing up with only one parent around and the other close but not really there. I dont want my son to grow up thinking his dad doesnt want him that his dads new wife is more important. I just hope he knows that I love him more than anything in this whole world. He is my life and my best friend. I hope when he gets older and maybe one day reads this that he knows that it was not his fault that his father walked out. I just hope that his father realizes what hes missing out on before its to late and he loses his chance to build up their relationship.