Lonely days

You know somedays I am really happy with my life and other days it gets kind of depressing. Like today I am kind of down, but not for any particular reason. I mean nothing bad has happened today if anything something good has happened. But as I sit here at my parents house I have this feeling of loneliness. Some days I really wish I had a companion, a special someone. Im not alone in this life, I have my son and my family/friends around me all the time but I still have an empty void. Its like there is a missing piece of this puzzle of life. I never imagined when I was younger I would be a single mother, divorced, and going nowhere in life. When I was younger I always saw myself married and happy. Having a family and a house of my own. Instead Im living with my parents, trying to raise my son on my own with out a job. This is definately not how I saw my life going. I had a lot of plans for my future and a lot of big dreams that never came to pass. I always thought Id be the first person to graduate college from my family. I always dreamed to be a professional photographer and travel the world. I planned to be married once and that the marriage would last a lifetime and I would have a few kids and all the happiness a girl could ask for. But instead I am a beauty school drop out, divorced, single mother, living with her parents not really the future I had hoped for. But its not all bad I dont want you guys thinking I live a terrible life. I have an amazing son, family/friends that love me, a roof over my head, and unemployment for now. But sometimes its harder than others just emotionally and in my head. Sometimes it gets lonely even when surrounded by people. But I will keep moving foward not just for me but for my son.