Faith in Him

God is good! I never knew what it was like to be loved unconditionally even though I not perfect. I grew up in the church I knew who God and Jesus was and I knew all the stories. But when I was a 17 or 18 I slowly fell away from God and almost became like an unbeliever. I mean I still believed in God but I didnt follow all the rules. I ran from him and I ran long and hard. When my ex-husband left me and my whole world fell apart I blamed God instead of seeing what God was truly doing. I fell apart and I didnt want to be me anymore. I partied and did some things im not proud of and by the grace of God nothing bad happened to me. I didnt know what I was gonna do with my life but I knew I had to make a change because I didnt like where my life was going. It was then that I realized that I needed to find my way back to the truth. It was then the the Lord renewed my faith and my hope in him and I never want to feel the way I did without him again. The Lord works in mysterious ways and I may never fully understand the reasons behind him letting the things that have happened to me happen to me. I know that if I hadnt had the divorce I wouldnt be the christian I am today. I've learned a lot about myself because of this divorce. Some days I feel like this was the best thing that could have happened to me because it put me back on the right track. And even though its been 2.5 years since the divorce sometimes I feel like it was a bad thing at the same time. I will say this though I don't know why God let this happen but he did and I am grateful for it everyday cause its made me stronger. I wish it hadnt happened but everything happens for the good of those who follow God. I hope that my ex feels the same that he is happy for the time we had and for the amazing son we have. I wish him the best and I pray that he finds his true happiness that I hope to find as well for myself.