Where I came from

I am just like a lot of you reading this. I want you to know my back story so you can better understand the decisions I am making now and in the future. I have 2 brothers, one who is 28 and then a 13 year old, and both of them are half brothers if you wanna get technical. I was a happy child for the most part until I was about 4 or 5 when my parents divorced. My parents had joint custody of me and I had to spend every other week with each parent. I always felt growing up that my mother never wanted me, that she always chose my brother and her stupid abusive boyfriends. But I am grateful that I had my father and my mom's mother to raise me, they were always there for me. Growing up I had to watch my mother go from one retard to another and I had to watch her get the crap beat out of her. Thats not stuff a child needs to go through. As I got older things got worse with my mother. I couldnt keep her attention, I was always the bastard child to her. I always wanted that relationship with her but not anymore I dont even care. Even in high school my mother was never there. She missed out on my junior prom, senior prom, and my high school graduation. But for the other parts of my life it really wasnt to bad. I have my dad who is one of my best friends and my grandmother who I am also close with on my side. Today I just want everyone to know that there is a lot that I can relate to, I am a good listener so any questions or comments i'd be happy to answer. Tomorrow I will talk about my marriage/divorce so you can better understand what has shaped my life today.

Who I am Today

My name is not important, or at least not today. I am here to share my story, my journey to finding me. I am 23 years old and a single mother to a beautiful 4 year old boy. Who I am today is just a girl looking to find my place in this world. I know that sounds corny and cliche but thats the truth. I am not looking for a big following in doing this. I am just hoping that in my day to day struggles, enjoyments, and everything in between it will help someone else. My life right now is a little hectic. I just recently moved back in with my parents because I lost my job in april. I do live in Utah but I am not a mormon. Dont get me wrong I have nothing against them but living in Utah a lot of people assume thats what you are. I am a Christian and I love God with all my heart. Saying this though I am not saying I am perfect, in fact I am far from it. So to tell you a little bit about myself. I am a complicated, easy-going, loving, crazy, and sometimes blonde person. I am no different than most of you out there I am just trying to give my son the best life that I can. I love spending as much time as I can with my son, we do a lot together. But when I am not trying to be a good mother I love camping, hiking, playing at the lake, country dancing, and dancing in the rain. I would rather wear jeans and a tshirt, but I do enjoy dressing up every now and then. With this blog I am hoping that I can be honest with you and show you who I really am. I will try to post once a day about the things going on in my life. I will not be using real names in order to keep things confidential for others or posting pictures. I hope that you will learn things about yourself while I also learn things about myself. I guess thats all I can hope for. Well for now I am going to go and I look forward to talking to you again. :)

Vaya Con Dios (Go With God)